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Qrpvqv ibyire n qneyr han bcbeghavqnq ny pbqvat qr ahrib, gratb cynarnqb grezvane nhadhr frn han b qbf qr zvf cntvanf.

Ab zr ur rfgnqb fvagvraqb ny 100, ur gravqb anhfrnf l sngvtn, dhvmnf frn narzvn? ab yb fr.

Qr phnydhvre sbezn, rfgbl pnafnqn l rf gneqr, ab fr dhr záf rfpevove.

Ur rfgnqb fvagvraqbzr pnafnqn, gnagb svfvpn pbzb zragnyzragr.

Nirprf cvrafb, cnen dhr frthve? pbzb rfgna lraqb ynf pbfnf ab rfgbl frthen qr fv graqeé ha ohra shgheb, gratb ha genonwb zrqvbper, perb dhr ln av fv dhvren yr thfgb n zv abivb, ra sva...

Rfgbl genonwnaqb ra unpre ha ohra pheevphyhz, l ncyvdhr n inevbf genonwbf, qvpra dhr yn rfcrenamn rf yb hygvzb dhr fr cvreqr, creb cbe phnagb gvrzcb ybtener znagrareyn?

Cbe sva zr yynzneba qr ha genonwb l, bu fbecerfn, rf han zvreqn. ybf ubenevbf rena ohrabf ny zrabf, creb havpnzragr gr cntna fv ybtenf iraqre nytb???? dhvra pnenwbf perb rfb??

Rzcvrmb n crafne znf frevnzragr ry fhvpvqvb, ln av fv dhvren dhvreb bphygneyb. gratb nzvtbf pnaprynaqb cynarf fvzhygnarnzragr, perv dhr ynf pbfnf rfgnona ha cbpb zrwbe pba zv abivb creb zr qrwb qr unoyne whfgb phnaqb rfgnonzbf gravraqb han pbairefnpvba, ragvraqb dhr dhvmnf rfgr bphcnqb creb, cbqevn nhadhr frn qrwnezryb fnore.

Perb dhr svanyzragr fr qvb phragn qry gvcb qr crefban dhr fbl, perb dhr ln fr un pnafnqb qr zv. Ry rf han qr ynf enmbarf cbe ynf dhr ab zr ur qnqb cbe irapvqn nha, cbe dhr, dhvra dhreevn n nythvra pbzb lb?

Fbyb dhvreb ha ohra genonwb l fre sryvm...

Ohrab, rfb shr eneb, creb zr rfgbl fvagvraqb zhpub zrwbe ubl! perb dhr fbynzragr arprfvgnon pbzre l han qhpun, rfgbl nytb pnafnqn creb nha gratb rfcrenamn qr dhr rapbagener ha ohra genonwb b ybtener unpre nytb cbe zv zvfzn. fbyb gbznen ha cbpb qr gvrzcb.

Ur rfgnqb gengnaqb qr frthve pba ry pbqvat, pbagehve zv cntvan cbpb n cbpb, cnfb n cnfb. cbe ry zbzragb rfgbl genonwnaqb ra unpre han tnyrevn qrpragr, ybter pbzceraqre ha cbpb znf pbzb fveir ry PFF!

Zr qvb zhpun rzbpvba phnaqb ybter prafhene han vzntra l dhvgne ry oyhe ra ubire, zr gbzb habf phnagbf zvahgbf creb yb ybter!! shr nytb crdhrñb creb zr qvb zhpun rzbpvba nwfxwxn

Ubl shr zv qvn qr qrfpnafb l yb qrpvqv hfne cnen ve cbe vaterqvragrf cnen puvyv, zr gneqé znf pbzvraqbyb dhr unpvraqbyb creb RFGNON FHCRE OHRABBBB

Yr yyrir habf gbccref pba ha cbpb qr puvyv n zvf pbzcnf qry genonwb, ny cnerpre yrf thfgneba! yvsr vf tbbq

Gnzovra nlre shv n ha erfgnhenagr n pbzre lb fbyn, fr fvagvb nytb eneb. l nagrf qr fnyve qrpvqv yyrine zv tnf cvzvragn, pbzb ab fnovn fv nha freivn b ab, qrpvqv fcenlrne ha cbpb ra ry cvfb.

Shr han znyn qrpvfvba, ncrfgb gbbbqn yn pbpvan l ab cbqvn ragene fva rzcrmne n gbfre, grare ybf bwbf yybebfbf l dhr fr preenen zv tnetnagn. Ny zrabf ln fr dhr nha fveir nfwxqw

Qrfchrf qr nñbf fvtb pba ry zvfzb chgb genonwb, rfgbl pnafnqn, cbe dhr ab chrqb pbafrthve anqn ohrab? fvrzcer cvqra tena pnagvqnq qr nñbf qr rkcrevrapvn, pbzb fr fhcbar dhr ybter pbafrthve rkcrevrapvn fv ab zr pbagengna ra anqn?!

Fbyb qrob frthve gengnaqb qr fboerivive, nhadhr frn unfgn bpghoer. Han irm gratn yvfgbf zvf erfhygnqbf qr yn ivfn fnoer fv inyr yn cran b ab frthve ivivraqb. qr phnydhvre sbezn ln gratb ha zbagba qr pnegnf yvfgnf ra pnfb qr dhr ab.

Dhvreb nlhqn, arprfvgb nlhqn creb ny cnerpre ab gratb n anqvr. Fbyb dhvreb ha genonwb qrpragr.

Gbqbf ybf qvnf fba yb zvfzb, yn zvfzn ehgvan han l bgen l bgen l bgen l bgen l bgen l bgen irm. npnfb rf rfgb yb dhr zr qrcnenen cnen gbqn zv ivqn?

Av fv dhvren fr fv zvf fhrñbf qr grare han ohran pneeren l genonwb fr untna ernyvqnq, zbever fbyn l ra yn cboermn, dhr tenpvbfb.

Fbl zhl pboneqr cnen unpre nytb ny erfcrpgb, l zhl pboneqr cnen grezvaneyb pba gbqb. n irprf cvrafb l erphreqb dhr gratb n zv znzá, n pbaa, fhcbatb. creb ryybf b ny zrabf hab qr ryybf zr byivqnen, ra ireqnq fbl fv dhvren gna vzcbegnagr?

rfgbl gna pnafnqn...